To be honestly..... I did this blog to make me happy.... to write only about happy things during the day.
Well,, nothing really 'happy' happens to me anymore.....
so I guess today was an alright day....
didnt go fishing, but had a looong trip...
came home to still being stressed out,..... jess and jared talking about me was rather entertaining...
than I did some dreads, watched...... well I already forgot what its called.
ate...
took a shower, did a lot of thinking...
came out to a commercial saying 'I wish I died'
-sigh-
I might.... might... go edit my vf profile, and myspace profile.... might
Sunday, May 30, 2010
Saturday, May 29, 2010
65
so I woke up, and it was already too late to go fishing.... gr.
so later on in the day my dad and I went to go buy some camping, fishing gear :]
than went out for lunch
:]
and that was my first time trying octopus and it was pretty good
than I decided to try tumpora banana.... yuck.
than chip decided to RUIN MY DAY!!!
i called him and just cursed him out and I think it kinda leet out a lot of stress but I ended up saying some stuff I shouldnt have said.
UGH i hate those guys. I wish I never ever met them at alllll
that or I hope they die some how
the end
im so hating today
oh, Jared made a facebook. yay
so later on in the day my dad and I went to go buy some camping, fishing gear :]
than went out for lunch
:]
and that was my first time trying octopus and it was pretty good
than I decided to try tumpora banana.... yuck.
than chip decided to RUIN MY DAY!!!
i called him and just cursed him out and I think it kinda leet out a lot of stress but I ended up saying some stuff I shouldnt have said.
UGH i hate those guys. I wish I never ever met them at alllll
that or I hope they die some how
the end
im so hating today
oh, Jared made a facebook. yay
Day 63, and 64
Day 63
See, this is the reason why I need to do it each day or I'll forget....
Jared said I took a nap, did some dreads, and just stayed home all day, oh, and photoshopped some pictures from day 64 I think it was....
Im also sure that me and chip argued....
but anyways, who cares about day 63,.... well, I got to eat steak though :]
Day 64:
OMG, BEST DAY EVER!!!!
So I wake up to Jared at my glass door.... which made me smile...
We ended up crawling into bed and took a nap, but my bed has a bunch of junk on it, so it was a tight fit, but we were actually able to fall asleep for a little however it was getting hot....
And I had a dream that we were standing next to these close lines with dead flowers hanging from them....
I was trying to arrange them juust right because I think.... that was our wedding day.
I have weird dreams when I get really hot. Than Muggle decided he wanted to lay ontop of jared,... and at some point of time, he also decided to bite his foot. haha.
Than I started to text chip to see when he was coming over. ok, I dont even want to talk about it. he is such a little child.
But as soon as chip came over and grabbed his stuff, I made some eggs, bacon, and... STRAWBERRY SHORT CAKE!!! It was actually pretty good for my first time :]
Than we started watching the rest of the turlock video... it was kinda boring.....
but than we decided to get ready..... well I did.
I put on my little outfit and my dreads, which was kind of a pain, and my outfit was super uncomfortable.
But we headed out downtown... so... may... whistles lol
We got downtown, spent hours waiting for buses, and walking to bus stops, and riding buses... and while we were riding the bus, we found out I got HELLA picture comments already from the pictures he took
but we got to his work place for him to pick up his check, and my dad called, and I told him what we were up to, lol and he said 'well good, now he could take you out somewhere nice to eat' lol
so after that we walked around looking for an icecream place..... we ended up finding out it was like art day or something, it was pretty cool. I love how me and Jared have art/photography in common.... it was nice just walking around looking at pictures.
Than we headed into hottopic, there was this fuzzy animal hat I've been dying to have but they have been sold out for a while... Than we ended up findin this icecream place.... we tried out a lot of different flavors.....
I ended up getting the carmel apple, you know, like the candy, and chocolate covered stawberries..... omg, sooo good!!!
and Jared got peach, and just plain carmel. we sat there listening to music, and talking.... it was nice....
Afterwards we walked into this store called.... 'just colorado' I think, it was like somewhat a tourist indian store. It was rather interesting. We went to this one section where there was dead bugs and such inside of harden sap or whatever its called, and I was telling Jared how I found one once with a bat inside, and as I said that I moved some papers around from ontop of the table and what do you know, there was one. And I wanted to get it sooo bad, but I decided to save my money.
So we left and took the free bus thingy down to the end of the road and decided to go stick our feet in the river :]
I friggen love Jared, hes so fun lol.
we sat there talking and just chilling till we decided to go feather down the river and decided to just walk around in it.... It was super relaxing.
Than we walked over to the skate park, and on the way we found this little sitting area ontop of the hill, it was like a hole in the hill or whatever, it was cool.
But we got to the skatepark and met up with some of his friends. He was hella funny, and I guess I have him on my modeling page. haha
anyways, we waited for the bus, and some people whistled at me and Jared asked
'doesnt that flatter you?'
and of course I said 'not really.... its just funny how all guys are the same.... such pervs' lol
than he said '....those were girls'
Me: *blush* '................oh'
haha, lol that was hella funny.
but by the time we got on the bus and got over to where Jared needed to cash his check [it was cool, his bank is open 24/7 but they were just atms but it was like inside] than we went over to chapotle and got some foom. yum
than we went and waited for the bus again....
Finally we got to the mall where the baby bat industrial club was at..... wasnt very full and it was mostly just young kids....
so we found klaa and asked to put our stuff in the car...
so we did, and some people came up to us and were all like 'do you know who's car this is?'
and we said yea, that it was klaa's car....
I didnt mind that part, but than when she kept asking us what we were doing, what we were lookin for, and that we wouldnt be able to find it, and that SHE would look... as if we dont know klaa, and as if we were not friends with klaa.... probably because Jared was 'different' which really pissed me off.....
and than when she asked if I made my dreads, and Jared said that I make and sell them she had to be all like 'oh,... well yea, of course, so do I'
whaaaat ever.
anyways, as soon as we walked in again this really pretty talll girl came up and started asking me about my dreads. yea,... she was pretty. lol.
anyways, we ended up talking to her a whole bunch, than I found Benjamen!!! He was one of my photographers.... than we were sitting around, and he had this whole gang follow him, and than he pointed at me, and told me to come along. I am in one of his books! His modeling books! omg, it was fricken SWEET!!! but my face was all red and junk from being soo cold from the shoot that I ended up not really liking some of the pictures.
but yea, we were having fun... and than Jared found two people he went to school with! Than that pretty girl, Virus, I found out that she was going out with one of my friends, the one that was modeling with me with Benjamen, WHAT A SMALL ASS WORLD!!
and Jared said he'd help him get a job and such, so I think we made a few good friends.
it was fun even though we just went there just to talk, but thats kinda what the whole thing was about, socializing,, not really much of a club....
than we all packed into the car, me and Jared in the back.... I was really sad when Jared had to leave =[
on the way home me and Virus were talking up a storm, and that one girl in the front was talking, but I hella couldnt understand what the hell she was saying. Hearing problems suck.....
Day 64...
Such a great day....
I miss him so much and wish I could see him everyday... well... maybe with a few breaks here and there since I tend to get stressed like that, but that is what work days are for.
But it was like such a romantic day...
and I love how he asks why him, and such, but there is no way to really describe why...
Oh, and derrick text, drunk again lol. thats like the only time he really texts me.
and Damien called, and Jared said hi :]
OH!!! We found this one place off of the 16th street mall that is totally rundown but still good enough for a shop! omg, it was SO cool looking!
See, this is the reason why I need to do it each day or I'll forget....
Jared said I took a nap, did some dreads, and just stayed home all day, oh, and photoshopped some pictures from day 64 I think it was....
Im also sure that me and chip argued....
but anyways, who cares about day 63,.... well, I got to eat steak though :]
Day 64:
OMG, BEST DAY EVER!!!!
So I wake up to Jared at my glass door.... which made me smile...
We ended up crawling into bed and took a nap, but my bed has a bunch of junk on it, so it was a tight fit, but we were actually able to fall asleep for a little however it was getting hot....
And I had a dream that we were standing next to these close lines with dead flowers hanging from them....
I was trying to arrange them juust right because I think.... that was our wedding day.
I have weird dreams when I get really hot. Than Muggle decided he wanted to lay ontop of jared,... and at some point of time, he also decided to bite his foot. haha.
Than I started to text chip to see when he was coming over. ok, I dont even want to talk about it. he is such a little child.
But as soon as chip came over and grabbed his stuff, I made some eggs, bacon, and... STRAWBERRY SHORT CAKE!!! It was actually pretty good for my first time :]
Than we started watching the rest of the turlock video... it was kinda boring.....
but than we decided to get ready..... well I did.
I put on my little outfit and my dreads, which was kind of a pain, and my outfit was super uncomfortable.
But we headed out downtown... so... may... whistles lol
We got downtown, spent hours waiting for buses, and walking to bus stops, and riding buses... and while we were riding the bus, we found out I got HELLA picture comments already from the pictures he took
but we got to his work place for him to pick up his check, and my dad called, and I told him what we were up to, lol and he said 'well good, now he could take you out somewhere nice to eat' lol
so after that we walked around looking for an icecream place..... we ended up finding out it was like art day or something, it was pretty cool. I love how me and Jared have art/photography in common.... it was nice just walking around looking at pictures.
Than we headed into hottopic, there was this fuzzy animal hat I've been dying to have but they have been sold out for a while... Than we ended up findin this icecream place.... we tried out a lot of different flavors.....
I ended up getting the carmel apple, you know, like the candy, and chocolate covered stawberries..... omg, sooo good!!!
and Jared got peach, and just plain carmel. we sat there listening to music, and talking.... it was nice....
Afterwards we walked into this store called.... 'just colorado' I think, it was like somewhat a tourist indian store. It was rather interesting. We went to this one section where there was dead bugs and such inside of harden sap or whatever its called, and I was telling Jared how I found one once with a bat inside, and as I said that I moved some papers around from ontop of the table and what do you know, there was one. And I wanted to get it sooo bad, but I decided to save my money.
So we left and took the free bus thingy down to the end of the road and decided to go stick our feet in the river :]
I friggen love Jared, hes so fun lol.
we sat there talking and just chilling till we decided to go feather down the river and decided to just walk around in it.... It was super relaxing.
Than we walked over to the skate park, and on the way we found this little sitting area ontop of the hill, it was like a hole in the hill or whatever, it was cool.
But we got to the skatepark and met up with some of his friends. He was hella funny, and I guess I have him on my modeling page. haha
anyways, we waited for the bus, and some people whistled at me and Jared asked
'doesnt that flatter you?'
and of course I said 'not really.... its just funny how all guys are the same.... such pervs' lol
than he said '....those were girls'
Me: *blush* '................oh'
haha, lol that was hella funny.
but by the time we got on the bus and got over to where Jared needed to cash his check [it was cool, his bank is open 24/7 but they were just atms but it was like inside] than we went over to chapotle and got some foom. yum
than we went and waited for the bus again....
Finally we got to the mall where the baby bat industrial club was at..... wasnt very full and it was mostly just young kids....
so we found klaa and asked to put our stuff in the car...
so we did, and some people came up to us and were all like 'do you know who's car this is?'
and we said yea, that it was klaa's car....
I didnt mind that part, but than when she kept asking us what we were doing, what we were lookin for, and that we wouldnt be able to find it, and that SHE would look... as if we dont know klaa, and as if we were not friends with klaa.... probably because Jared was 'different' which really pissed me off.....
and than when she asked if I made my dreads, and Jared said that I make and sell them she had to be all like 'oh,... well yea, of course, so do I'
whaaaat ever.
anyways, as soon as we walked in again this really pretty talll girl came up and started asking me about my dreads. yea,... she was pretty. lol.
anyways, we ended up talking to her a whole bunch, than I found Benjamen!!! He was one of my photographers.... than we were sitting around, and he had this whole gang follow him, and than he pointed at me, and told me to come along. I am in one of his books! His modeling books! omg, it was fricken SWEET!!! but my face was all red and junk from being soo cold from the shoot that I ended up not really liking some of the pictures.
but yea, we were having fun... and than Jared found two people he went to school with! Than that pretty girl, Virus, I found out that she was going out with one of my friends, the one that was modeling with me with Benjamen, WHAT A SMALL ASS WORLD!!
and Jared said he'd help him get a job and such, so I think we made a few good friends.
it was fun even though we just went there just to talk, but thats kinda what the whole thing was about, socializing,, not really much of a club....
than we all packed into the car, me and Jared in the back.... I was really sad when Jared had to leave =[
on the way home me and Virus were talking up a storm, and that one girl in the front was talking, but I hella couldnt understand what the hell she was saying. Hearing problems suck.....
Day 64...
Such a great day....
I miss him so much and wish I could see him everyday... well... maybe with a few breaks here and there since I tend to get stressed like that, but that is what work days are for.
But it was like such a romantic day...
and I love how he asks why him, and such, but there is no way to really describe why...
Oh, and derrick text, drunk again lol. thats like the only time he really texts me.
and Damien called, and Jared said hi :]
OH!!! We found this one place off of the 16th street mall that is totally rundown but still good enough for a shop! omg, it was SO cool looking!
Thursday, May 27, 2010
Day 60, 61, 62
Day 60 [Monday]
I cant really remember what was going on that day, but the boys ended up waking up late, and not coming over, so I planned it for the next day.....
So monday I decided to make some dreads and ended up watching a movie with my dad.
The Hurt locker
it was a really good movie, but kind of confusing..... confusing was the kid part. They didnt even show anything about what was going on with the kid...
and the sad part was the guy who had children, and got killed by a bomb strapped on him. At least the guy tried to get it off of him.
Than some kid tried telling me I dont know anything about goth.... well that was a horrible conversation. Sure I dont know EVERYTHING and I dont know much about music because I dont listen to a lot of music, its the fashion that Im REALLY into.... And if your going to have a clothing store, thats what really matters.... Besides, Richie would be the music person, so im not too worried,... and Ronnie knows a LOT about the culture.... well at least one part of the culture.... But Im still going to do a lot of research anyways.
Day 61 [Tuesday]
I woke up, got online for a bit, than finished a few more dreads as Andrew and Chip were blowing up my phone about when to come over, which I said 3, because Jared wanted to be here to make sure everything went alright.... and was getting upset cause his work was taking a lot longer than he thought it was, and by the time he was done, his dad couldnt pick him up, so I went to the office and printed some stuff out, and headed back home... Jared was like hecka pissed that I was letting the boys come over without him there, but I didnt want to put this off more and more....
so when the boys came over and grabbed their stuff, Chip did something to try and make me look stupid, which didnt work, so I just said whatever... hes hella stupid for thinking that I believed him. Thats the thing about me, if people think im stupid, I'll just shut up and get back at them later on. I hate stupid people..... Especially chip. God those two boys make me so mad. I cant wait till they get out of my life 100% And you know what? They could go die for all I care.
Anyways, after they left I told Chip that I wasnt stupid, and than he started throwing a stupid little kid's fit about this and that, and omg, he is soooo stupid. I finally told him that Andrew was gonna send Kayla the pictures of him and this girl,... and he didnt respond after that. fucking bitch,..... see, your the stupid one. you think Andrew is your friend.... he isnt. We are all not friends you dumb ass.....
anyways after a while my dad came home after I did the dishes and such.... and than Jared came over, only he told me to go meet him at the bus stop, so when I walked over there, he walked a different way, I stood there like an idiot till I was like 'where the fuck are you?!?!'
his response 'at your house' omg, that hella pissed me off.... but whatever. My dad took us to the mall, I got a fish taco, than we went to red robins... it was... meh... I got nachos.... it was a mexican night for me I guess...
than we went around shopping for a lil, but I didnt see much of what I wanted... gr.
anyways, my dad picked us up, and dropped Jared off, and we went back home....
My dad agreed to take us over to this one spot that me and Jared wanted to shoot way early in the morning... yay.
So I went home looked for a bunch of pictures, asked Jared to bring his camera, tripod, and clothes, his black shirt.... EVEN IF IT WASNT CLEAN!!! because not like it REALLY mattered, he was just going to wear it for the shoot....
Day 62 [Wednesday]
Jared text me early in the morning,...
guess what?
He didnt bring his camera, he didnt bring his clothes,... AND HE DIDNT BRING HIS TRIPOD!!!!
ugh, I was soooo upset.......
But whatever....
not really whatever, it kinda ruined the whole thing.....
but yea.
so I tossed my clothes in the drying to dewrinkle, got ready, and yea, than Jared got here...
so quickly I showed him the pictures, than we were off....
It was more of a drive than I thought it was but we got there.... We took pictures for like 3 hours! it felt like forever, but it was kinda fun... interesting, COLD!!! It wouldnt have been that bad if I had towels, but I didnt think to bring them, and my backpack was full enough already.... so after the 3 hours of messing around, we walked to the bus stop, which felt like forever lol.
Than we stopped at ihop, got breakfast... it was kinda funny... we both got stuffed french toast, both got scrambled eggs, and both got sausage,.. both said 'bacon' first, when we meant to say sausage... but he got strawberry and I got blue berry :] I like blueberries, than walked to the next bus stop... Jared's ankle was hurting HELL OF A LOT and I felt so bad for him.
after that we went home, and took a few hour nap.... got up, than started watching The Hurt Locker [yes, second time for me but Jared wanted to watch it] and after that...... it was time to go home =[
I hate this part of the day.... as soon as we get to his house it seems like time goes by sooo fast... and it sucks.
and this time I had to ride the bus alone.... he road it with me part way... which Im happy for cause I would have so gotten lost.... we talked a little bit about his past with Jennifer....
but when I got on the next bus, my dad called... he didnt want me riding the bus alone, and Jared kept insisting that he came with me to not ride the bus alone, but he would have missed his ride home...
but when I got off... I waited for a little over an hour, in the cold... I had to use my fricken scarf!!! but I got home, and Mathew started texting me cause I wanted to know if he was still planning of shooting tomorrow. God he is so stupid... and such an immature photographer. I hate how photographers think they are professional when they suck ass..... Or dont want escorts... how lame. And he was a 'so called friend' too... I keep running into these so called friends all the time....
whatever, his loss....
anyways, I finally got home! yay.
Day 63 [this morning]
Damien called me! Yay. He said he had been working all night, and hadnt gone to sleep yet, but felt the need to call me, and said I can call any time after 9 on his new cell... and that he wanted me to come and visit next month. what a great way to wake up :]
I cant really remember what was going on that day, but the boys ended up waking up late, and not coming over, so I planned it for the next day.....
So monday I decided to make some dreads and ended up watching a movie with my dad.
The Hurt locker
it was a really good movie, but kind of confusing..... confusing was the kid part. They didnt even show anything about what was going on with the kid...
and the sad part was the guy who had children, and got killed by a bomb strapped on him. At least the guy tried to get it off of him.
Than some kid tried telling me I dont know anything about goth.... well that was a horrible conversation. Sure I dont know EVERYTHING and I dont know much about music because I dont listen to a lot of music, its the fashion that Im REALLY into.... And if your going to have a clothing store, thats what really matters.... Besides, Richie would be the music person, so im not too worried,... and Ronnie knows a LOT about the culture.... well at least one part of the culture.... But Im still going to do a lot of research anyways.
Day 61 [Tuesday]
I woke up, got online for a bit, than finished a few more dreads as Andrew and Chip were blowing up my phone about when to come over, which I said 3, because Jared wanted to be here to make sure everything went alright.... and was getting upset cause his work was taking a lot longer than he thought it was, and by the time he was done, his dad couldnt pick him up, so I went to the office and printed some stuff out, and headed back home... Jared was like hecka pissed that I was letting the boys come over without him there, but I didnt want to put this off more and more....
so when the boys came over and grabbed their stuff, Chip did something to try and make me look stupid, which didnt work, so I just said whatever... hes hella stupid for thinking that I believed him. Thats the thing about me, if people think im stupid, I'll just shut up and get back at them later on. I hate stupid people..... Especially chip. God those two boys make me so mad. I cant wait till they get out of my life 100% And you know what? They could go die for all I care.
Anyways, after they left I told Chip that I wasnt stupid, and than he started throwing a stupid little kid's fit about this and that, and omg, he is soooo stupid. I finally told him that Andrew was gonna send Kayla the pictures of him and this girl,... and he didnt respond after that. fucking bitch,..... see, your the stupid one. you think Andrew is your friend.... he isnt. We are all not friends you dumb ass.....
anyways after a while my dad came home after I did the dishes and such.... and than Jared came over, only he told me to go meet him at the bus stop, so when I walked over there, he walked a different way, I stood there like an idiot till I was like 'where the fuck are you?!?!'
his response 'at your house' omg, that hella pissed me off.... but whatever. My dad took us to the mall, I got a fish taco, than we went to red robins... it was... meh... I got nachos.... it was a mexican night for me I guess...
than we went around shopping for a lil, but I didnt see much of what I wanted... gr.
anyways, my dad picked us up, and dropped Jared off, and we went back home....
My dad agreed to take us over to this one spot that me and Jared wanted to shoot way early in the morning... yay.
So I went home looked for a bunch of pictures, asked Jared to bring his camera, tripod, and clothes, his black shirt.... EVEN IF IT WASNT CLEAN!!! because not like it REALLY mattered, he was just going to wear it for the shoot....
Day 62 [Wednesday]
Jared text me early in the morning,...
guess what?
He didnt bring his camera, he didnt bring his clothes,... AND HE DIDNT BRING HIS TRIPOD!!!!
ugh, I was soooo upset.......
But whatever....
not really whatever, it kinda ruined the whole thing.....
but yea.
so I tossed my clothes in the drying to dewrinkle, got ready, and yea, than Jared got here...
so quickly I showed him the pictures, than we were off....
It was more of a drive than I thought it was but we got there.... We took pictures for like 3 hours! it felt like forever, but it was kinda fun... interesting, COLD!!! It wouldnt have been that bad if I had towels, but I didnt think to bring them, and my backpack was full enough already.... so after the 3 hours of messing around, we walked to the bus stop, which felt like forever lol.
Than we stopped at ihop, got breakfast... it was kinda funny... we both got stuffed french toast, both got scrambled eggs, and both got sausage,.. both said 'bacon' first, when we meant to say sausage... but he got strawberry and I got blue berry :] I like blueberries, than walked to the next bus stop... Jared's ankle was hurting HELL OF A LOT and I felt so bad for him.
after that we went home, and took a few hour nap.... got up, than started watching The Hurt Locker [yes, second time for me but Jared wanted to watch it] and after that...... it was time to go home =[
I hate this part of the day.... as soon as we get to his house it seems like time goes by sooo fast... and it sucks.
and this time I had to ride the bus alone.... he road it with me part way... which Im happy for cause I would have so gotten lost.... we talked a little bit about his past with Jennifer....
but when I got on the next bus, my dad called... he didnt want me riding the bus alone, and Jared kept insisting that he came with me to not ride the bus alone, but he would have missed his ride home...
but when I got off... I waited for a little over an hour, in the cold... I had to use my fricken scarf!!! but I got home, and Mathew started texting me cause I wanted to know if he was still planning of shooting tomorrow. God he is so stupid... and such an immature photographer. I hate how photographers think they are professional when they suck ass..... Or dont want escorts... how lame. And he was a 'so called friend' too... I keep running into these so called friends all the time....
whatever, his loss....
anyways, I finally got home! yay.
Day 63 [this morning]
Damien called me! Yay. He said he had been working all night, and hadnt gone to sleep yet, but felt the need to call me, and said I can call any time after 9 on his new cell... and that he wanted me to come and visit next month. what a great way to wake up :]
Sunday, May 23, 2010
58 & 59
So yesterday, day 58, I went down to the springs, and yay, that was totally awesome!!!
I got to see Jess and YAAAY!!!! Untill her dad totally started ranting to her about stupid stuff....
which also has to deal with me and Jared....
When our parents were younger, Im sure they were sleeping with their loved ones at our age.... because they have had jobs since forever, since they were young, so they were able to do what they want at our age... but no adays, life is so much harder....
and in my dictionary, 'sleeping with eacch other' means 'sleeping in the same bed/taking a nap' not having sex....
anyways the poor girl started crying....
but anyways, we got our stuff together, and started taking some interesting pictures, and as soon as we find a nice place to take pictures in a field type place,..... my camera died as soon as I was done taking pictures for Jess, and I wanted some for myself....
and as I was doing that, chip just had to go ruin my day by saying 'I dont care... I NEVER LIKED YOU IN THE FIRST PLACE' oh my god, that pissed me off sooo bad considering I let him live with me while he was homeless..... than andrew said 'well can I still get my stuff? I dont see why your so mad' and I told him what chip said, and he was all like 'well chip is way too emotional, I didnt say that, he did'
so I told my dad about it, and my dad doesnt like them one bit, and frankly, im etting so fed up with it....
so than we headed home, and went to the movies.... we went to go see Robin Hood.... It was alright I suppose.... actually pretty good,... had a little comedy in it :]
Day 58....
I will never trust a single soul ever again
Day 59....
this morning was pretty interesting after taking a few hour nap.
anyways, we ended up watching some of the turlock video...
than we went to go to some family party of Jared's and that one dino came from the rockies game... it was hella funny...
than we ended up going back home.... hung out for a while, talked, than chip started talking to me......
he said sorry and shit, but im sure they just wants his shit back....
and now andrew is threatening me about shit, so he doesnt have to pay me my money, and for me to give his shit...
yea, not gonna happen...
but he is REALLY trying to black mail me which wont work anyways
FUCK MY LIFE, IM SO FUCKING READY TO FUCKING DIE!!!!
I got to see Jess and YAAAY!!!! Untill her dad totally started ranting to her about stupid stuff....
which also has to deal with me and Jared....
When our parents were younger, Im sure they were sleeping with their loved ones at our age.... because they have had jobs since forever, since they were young, so they were able to do what they want at our age... but no adays, life is so much harder....
and in my dictionary, 'sleeping with eacch other' means 'sleeping in the same bed/taking a nap' not having sex....
anyways the poor girl started crying....
but anyways, we got our stuff together, and started taking some interesting pictures, and as soon as we find a nice place to take pictures in a field type place,..... my camera died as soon as I was done taking pictures for Jess, and I wanted some for myself....
and as I was doing that, chip just had to go ruin my day by saying 'I dont care... I NEVER LIKED YOU IN THE FIRST PLACE' oh my god, that pissed me off sooo bad considering I let him live with me while he was homeless..... than andrew said 'well can I still get my stuff? I dont see why your so mad' and I told him what chip said, and he was all like 'well chip is way too emotional, I didnt say that, he did'
so I told my dad about it, and my dad doesnt like them one bit, and frankly, im etting so fed up with it....
so than we headed home, and went to the movies.... we went to go see Robin Hood.... It was alright I suppose.... actually pretty good,... had a little comedy in it :]
Day 58....
I will never trust a single soul ever again
Day 59....
this morning was pretty interesting after taking a few hour nap.
anyways, we ended up watching some of the turlock video...
than we went to go to some family party of Jared's and that one dino came from the rockies game... it was hella funny...
than we ended up going back home.... hung out for a while, talked, than chip started talking to me......
he said sorry and shit, but im sure they just wants his shit back....
and now andrew is threatening me about shit, so he doesnt have to pay me my money, and for me to give his shit...
yea, not gonna happen...
but he is REALLY trying to black mail me which wont work anyways
FUCK MY LIFE, IM SO FUCKING READY TO FUCKING DIE!!!!
Friday, May 21, 2010
57
I awoke around 11....
and I just got online, and.... well, I cant even remember.
anyways, I went to the dentist... and man... I have lots of shit going on in my mouth...
cavities from my old filler thingies, gonna get caps, and more fillings, and yea....
for say we get EVERYTHING done,... well, lets just say my insurance wont cover it...
the lady... the actual DENTIST dentist,... not the lady who gives you the xray, and pokes your mouth with a sharp hook, and the one that gives you the polish, the actual dentist who comes in and just stares at your teeth and says 'we're gonna do this this this and this'... that person. She was super scary. first she came over, and I thought she was just faking it when she goes [with a super sweet voice] "Hiii.... its nice to meet you Krystalle... Im so and so..."
But when she started using her hands slowly waving them around saying 'we are going to make your smile 'beautiful' [waves hands slowly in a rainbow shape]
'We are going to make things soooooo much better'
with her SUPER sweet soft voice.... she reminds me of that evil lady on harry potter with the weird little giggle, and her HELLA strict rules,... but tried to sound super sweet....
anyways, yea.... I have a lot going on.
anyways, I came home, talking to klaa... he told a girl he wouldnt 'hang out' with her because she 'types like a 6th grader' which I thought was really rude.... b3cu2e 2h3 t4lks l1k3 th1s.... which is really annoying yes... but ronnie used to talk like that, and he just so happened to have been the coolest person ever. you cant judge people by what they look like, or how they type,... out of all people, I thought Klaa would be the last to judge people.
anyways, than I went out to dinner with my dad. we were supposed to go to a thai place... but we couldnt find it ugh!
so we ended up going to a sushi place... meh, it wasnt the greatest. we can never find a good sushi place in colorado....
anyways... yea, that was my day. oh, the boys said they moved out and just need their stuff........ I really hope they pay me back, after that, we can be friends, or not... whatever they want to do...
but im back to feeling alone and just with jared... which is fine, but in a way, its not. you'd want a lover, but you'd also want friends right?
day 57
like always, Im left in the dust... and right now all I have is Jared
So Jared, I hope you never leave me....
even if I did have my friends here, I hope you never go
and I just got online, and.... well, I cant even remember.
anyways, I went to the dentist... and man... I have lots of shit going on in my mouth...
cavities from my old filler thingies, gonna get caps, and more fillings, and yea....
for say we get EVERYTHING done,... well, lets just say my insurance wont cover it...
the lady... the actual DENTIST dentist,... not the lady who gives you the xray, and pokes your mouth with a sharp hook, and the one that gives you the polish, the actual dentist who comes in and just stares at your teeth and says 'we're gonna do this this this and this'... that person. She was super scary. first she came over, and I thought she was just faking it when she goes [with a super sweet voice] "Hiii.... its nice to meet you Krystalle... Im so and so..."
But when she started using her hands slowly waving them around saying 'we are going to make your smile 'beautiful' [waves hands slowly in a rainbow shape]
'We are going to make things soooooo much better'
with her SUPER sweet soft voice.... she reminds me of that evil lady on harry potter with the weird little giggle, and her HELLA strict rules,... but tried to sound super sweet....
anyways, yea.... I have a lot going on.
anyways, I came home, talking to klaa... he told a girl he wouldnt 'hang out' with her because she 'types like a 6th grader' which I thought was really rude.... b3cu2e 2h3 t4lks l1k3 th1s.... which is really annoying yes... but ronnie used to talk like that, and he just so happened to have been the coolest person ever. you cant judge people by what they look like, or how they type,... out of all people, I thought Klaa would be the last to judge people.
anyways, than I went out to dinner with my dad. we were supposed to go to a thai place... but we couldnt find it ugh!
so we ended up going to a sushi place... meh, it wasnt the greatest. we can never find a good sushi place in colorado....
anyways... yea, that was my day. oh, the boys said they moved out and just need their stuff........ I really hope they pay me back, after that, we can be friends, or not... whatever they want to do...
but im back to feeling alone and just with jared... which is fine, but in a way, its not. you'd want a lover, but you'd also want friends right?
day 57
like always, Im left in the dust... and right now all I have is Jared
So Jared, I hope you never leave me....
even if I did have my friends here, I hope you never go
Thursday, May 20, 2010
55 and 56...
55....
what happened yesterday?
I cant remember.... except I think my dad told me to make a drivers test for friday... and than he mad a dentist appointment for me for friday, which totally ruined my date with Jared....
Than I walked with chip to wallgreens, and I got some dietary stuff, than I drove with my dad to the college.... WE WERE TOO LATE!!
ugh. so than my dad said we'd come back 'thursday' which is the day I re-arranged the date with Jared, so I was like 'fucking hell man, shit! Now i'll never get to see Jared!' and I almost started crying on the way out of the school.....
So we came home, and my dad was kinda upset that no one had cooked dinner for that day.... so I went out in the livingroom after debating if I should go cry in bed or not, and asked my dad if he wanted me to cook, than Andrew offered to cook... which totally made me happy, but totally lead me to my room to cry....
after a little while my dad came in and asked if I was mad at him, which I wasnt, except he totally needs to tell me... or ASK me ahead of time before making arrangements for me.... but I wasnt mad about the college thing, it wasnt his fault....
I think I also asked Bass's gf if she could talk to bass about sending my stuff... and she was totally nice about it, which made me at least a lil happy.....
Day 55....
Dates ruined
totally made me cry!!!
56....
So I am getting ready, and my dad tells me to not forget to call the place, and leaves.... so I ended up walking around the house in a tank top and my underware since the boys were not home. yay....
and I was really.... REALLY trying to find something for a cute outfit....
Than as I was still trying to do that, Jared comes over around 8 ish or something....
we get to his house, and Im HELLA trying to get ahold of the COF thingy, which I filled out, but I was trying to get some information on if it's not all authorized and stuff yet, if I just told the school that I have been here, and the whole thing was pending, if they would just go through with the process.... but didnt work.
so I have to wait till next semester now to do it....
anyways, that took out a HUGE portion of my day, just fucking sitting there for like an hour doing NOTHING but waiting.....
than we watched twilight 2... omg, jacob is hot. lol
Jared said he caught me drooling when he ripped his shirt off pretty much, but I wasnt. I was so about to laugh cause I saw Jared look over at me, omg, it was tooooo funny....
anyways, after that we went down to things that glow, than nu world. for global, me and jared are gonna sorta match... I sooo cant wait
I rode the bus today totally free..... and we rode the light rail free.... does ANYONE even pay? I dont think so.
oh, totally forgot... BASS CONTACTED ME!!! totally text me....
saying 'Look, im dropping ur shot off at ur grandparents in a few days, and if you ever contact my gf like that again pray to god I dont find out'
so I said: 'Aw why, you going to kill me?'
bass: 'No, just burn every trace of you out of my life'
Me: 'havnt you already done that you fucking backstabber?'
Bass: 'Not yet I havent'
Me: 'Well I contacted you for over 60 just to see if you were fucking alive and NOW you contact me. you died to me a few days back.... cant you just mail me my stuff? I gave you money for that'
and he never responded after that.....
I just hope he sends EVERYTHING to me, or my grandparents....
so yea, anyways, we finally got home, and jared's bro and mom picked us up from the smoke shop... it was kinda funny, but Jared said that his mom wanted to take me out shopping... totally not what I thought he meant but she still rocks.
anyways after that we got home, and walked around for a while and took pictures. yaaay I love how he loves to take pictures, but its kinda weird at the same time. I just need to get used to it.
oh, so we got home, than soon after just laying there, we had to go and get on the bus.... we had a lot of deep conversations today....
some good, some bad.
I just hope that if I ever do move, that he wouldnt just be all like 'welp, it was fun while it lasted, bye'
Im tired of that happening to me all the time, and Im always moving for some odd reason.....
I just hope I can trust him.... which I can.... but, there are just some things that are too personal to talk about, but yea....
anyways, so Bass's 'girl friend' as he says said 'we have not been dating since FEBRUARY' <-----!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHAT?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!!!!!????!!!!!????!?!?!
omg, I will KILL THAT MOTHER FUCKER AS SOON AS I SEE HIM!! [not really] Feb... he said he had not dated her since... way before he met me.... [like, at the airport met me met me]
we were 'hooked up' in February! We've been hooked up for MONTHS!!! and you two were DATING?!?! omfg... I cant believe that..... seriously........... I must have been the most stupidest girl in the whole entire world.... really.....
I mean, I did get kicked out on o3/o8/1o and we were having sex and all....
you even lied to Damien..... or Damien lied to me, which I dont think he would have.
I knew there was a reason for me not dating him besides Ronnie....
day 56....
totally ruined day, yet a great day.
I had a good time with Jared, I just wish I could spend MORE time with him....
Now im sitting here watching the turlock video part 1
I ccant believe myself...
chip is a total ass!!! he is rude, and im done.... I dont like the way he talked to/about [same sorta] Jared.... pissed me the fuck off
bass needs to go like, jump off a bridge
me and Jared talked about when we want to be parents.
he would be the typical everyday way overly too protective dad lol
no offense
what happened yesterday?
I cant remember.... except I think my dad told me to make a drivers test for friday... and than he mad a dentist appointment for me for friday, which totally ruined my date with Jared....
Than I walked with chip to wallgreens, and I got some dietary stuff, than I drove with my dad to the college.... WE WERE TOO LATE!!
ugh. so than my dad said we'd come back 'thursday' which is the day I re-arranged the date with Jared, so I was like 'fucking hell man, shit! Now i'll never get to see Jared!' and I almost started crying on the way out of the school.....
So we came home, and my dad was kinda upset that no one had cooked dinner for that day.... so I went out in the livingroom after debating if I should go cry in bed or not, and asked my dad if he wanted me to cook, than Andrew offered to cook... which totally made me happy, but totally lead me to my room to cry....
after a little while my dad came in and asked if I was mad at him, which I wasnt, except he totally needs to tell me... or ASK me ahead of time before making arrangements for me.... but I wasnt mad about the college thing, it wasnt his fault....
I think I also asked Bass's gf if she could talk to bass about sending my stuff... and she was totally nice about it, which made me at least a lil happy.....
Day 55....
Dates ruined
totally made me cry!!!
56....
So I am getting ready, and my dad tells me to not forget to call the place, and leaves.... so I ended up walking around the house in a tank top and my underware since the boys were not home. yay....
and I was really.... REALLY trying to find something for a cute outfit....
Than as I was still trying to do that, Jared comes over around 8 ish or something....
we get to his house, and Im HELLA trying to get ahold of the COF thingy, which I filled out, but I was trying to get some information on if it's not all authorized and stuff yet, if I just told the school that I have been here, and the whole thing was pending, if they would just go through with the process.... but didnt work.
so I have to wait till next semester now to do it....
anyways, that took out a HUGE portion of my day, just fucking sitting there for like an hour doing NOTHING but waiting.....
than we watched twilight 2... omg, jacob is hot. lol
Jared said he caught me drooling when he ripped his shirt off pretty much, but I wasnt. I was so about to laugh cause I saw Jared look over at me, omg, it was tooooo funny....
anyways, after that we went down to things that glow, than nu world. for global, me and jared are gonna sorta match... I sooo cant wait
I rode the bus today totally free..... and we rode the light rail free.... does ANYONE even pay? I dont think so.
oh, totally forgot... BASS CONTACTED ME!!! totally text me....
saying 'Look, im dropping ur shot off at ur grandparents in a few days, and if you ever contact my gf like that again pray to god I dont find out'
so I said: 'Aw why, you going to kill me?'
bass: 'No, just burn every trace of you out of my life'
Me: 'havnt you already done that you fucking backstabber?'
Bass: 'Not yet I havent'
Me: 'Well I contacted you for over 60 just to see if you were fucking alive and NOW you contact me. you died to me a few days back.... cant you just mail me my stuff? I gave you money for that'
and he never responded after that.....
I just hope he sends EVERYTHING to me, or my grandparents....
so yea, anyways, we finally got home, and jared's bro and mom picked us up from the smoke shop... it was kinda funny, but Jared said that his mom wanted to take me out shopping... totally not what I thought he meant but she still rocks.
anyways after that we got home, and walked around for a while and took pictures. yaaay I love how he loves to take pictures, but its kinda weird at the same time. I just need to get used to it.
oh, so we got home, than soon after just laying there, we had to go and get on the bus.... we had a lot of deep conversations today....
some good, some bad.
I just hope that if I ever do move, that he wouldnt just be all like 'welp, it was fun while it lasted, bye'
Im tired of that happening to me all the time, and Im always moving for some odd reason.....
I just hope I can trust him.... which I can.... but, there are just some things that are too personal to talk about, but yea....
anyways, so Bass's 'girl friend' as he says said 'we have not been dating since FEBRUARY' <-----!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHAT?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!!!!!????!!!!!????!?!?!
omg, I will KILL THAT MOTHER FUCKER AS SOON AS I SEE HIM!! [not really] Feb... he said he had not dated her since... way before he met me.... [like, at the airport met me met me]
we were 'hooked up' in February! We've been hooked up for MONTHS!!! and you two were DATING?!?! omfg... I cant believe that..... seriously........... I must have been the most stupidest girl in the whole entire world.... really.....
I mean, I did get kicked out on o3/o8/1o and we were having sex and all....
you even lied to Damien..... or Damien lied to me, which I dont think he would have.
I knew there was a reason for me not dating him besides Ronnie....
day 56....
totally ruined day, yet a great day.
I had a good time with Jared, I just wish I could spend MORE time with him....
Now im sitting here watching the turlock video part 1
I ccant believe myself...
chip is a total ass!!! he is rude, and im done.... I dont like the way he talked to/about [same sorta] Jared.... pissed me the fuck off
bass needs to go like, jump off a bridge
me and Jared talked about when we want to be parents.
he would be the typical everyday way overly too protective dad lol
no offense
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