I woke up finding out that Bass's phone is turned back on. That night, I had a dream that his phone was now saying 'The number your trying to reach has been changed' or something along those lines, and all I did in my was try to find a way to contact him over and over and over.
Wasnt the greatest mornings....
Besides that, I went to the office while my friend was still asleep, and got my clothes that had came in the mail... only to find out that I couldnt even button my pants on! Great, yay for getting fat...
and my tanktop was too small too....
=/ yaaay
-gap of memory loss-
I some how ended up throwing the trash away with my friend,... only because he wanted to go around looking for a cig... and by the time we reached the other side of the complex, we ran into my dad...
We went to get my permit.... only to find out that it was closed.
The rest of the day wasnt important really, except me and chip went job searching...
Lets see..... just stupid drama with my ex and my ex best friend, stupid thinking, the t.v. stopped working.... my steamer started spraying water, which makes the dreads wet, and doesnt let it melt... so idk whats going on with my steamer....
And the rest of the day I cant even remember.
Besides that, OMG! today was super annoying.
OH! my friend bailed again,... it was his car this time.
But I guess we're going to go get our tickets on monday than.
AND THAN!!! lol xp Chip kept calling me [I think] than he called me crow, and thats all I responded to.... that was kinda depressing. haha...
Day 16....
Still no word from Bass, no word from his mom.
On the side note: I talked to D today... hes back with his baby's mommy :]
and chip showed me how to work this stupid music maker shit thing. whatever its called
Saturday, April 10, 2010
12, 13, 14, 15
Ok, so I keep forgetting to update.... but whatever, this is more for myself I guess.....
Well I cant tell you what has been happening because I cant remember....
Thursday I hung out with my friend Rics.... we went shopping.... and I spent WAY too much money on clothes. but hey, it was a once in a life time thing.
Than later that night My friend Brandon called, and said he was homeless again, so I offered to help him out..... after asking if it was fine with my dad.
Than that night when i was getting ready for bed, my ex decided to text me... of course... he was drunk.... That didnt end so well.... More like me in tears.
So friday, I went to the dmv, passed my written test, missing 3, but we didnt have my birth certificate so I couldnt get my permit. Bummer... that means we have to spend another 2 hours waiting again.
We went down to get my dad his check from the layer, and I went shopping again by myself downtown. [we were in the springs at this time]
than we went to go pick up Brandon, and during that time, me and an ex were doing nothing but fighting. [donnie]
But we're solving things now, which is kinda scary, considering that he wants me back, I miss him, but there is the whole trust thing....
anyways, we all than went and bought a new huge t.v. for my dad, and a printer for me.
we went home, and settled down.
I've been having dreams lately, that had to do with either Ronnie, or Bass....
And I've also been having dreams with my mom. I dont know what they mean...
I just wish that one day things will be alright between me and Ronnie & Bass
This morning, which would be the 15th day, I called Bass.... and his phone was actually back on... just... not on on, if you know what I mean.
Like his bill was paid for.... it was just off.
Day 15....
No word from Bass still....
Good morning life
Well I cant tell you what has been happening because I cant remember....
Thursday I hung out with my friend Rics.... we went shopping.... and I spent WAY too much money on clothes. but hey, it was a once in a life time thing.
Than later that night My friend Brandon called, and said he was homeless again, so I offered to help him out..... after asking if it was fine with my dad.
Than that night when i was getting ready for bed, my ex decided to text me... of course... he was drunk.... That didnt end so well.... More like me in tears.
So friday, I went to the dmv, passed my written test, missing 3, but we didnt have my birth certificate so I couldnt get my permit. Bummer... that means we have to spend another 2 hours waiting again.
We went down to get my dad his check from the layer, and I went shopping again by myself downtown. [we were in the springs at this time]
than we went to go pick up Brandon, and during that time, me and an ex were doing nothing but fighting. [donnie]
But we're solving things now, which is kinda scary, considering that he wants me back, I miss him, but there is the whole trust thing....
anyways, we all than went and bought a new huge t.v. for my dad, and a printer for me.
we went home, and settled down.
I've been having dreams lately, that had to do with either Ronnie, or Bass....
And I've also been having dreams with my mom. I dont know what they mean...
I just wish that one day things will be alright between me and Ronnie & Bass
This morning, which would be the 15th day, I called Bass.... and his phone was actually back on... just... not on on, if you know what I mean.
Like his bill was paid for.... it was just off.
Day 15....
No word from Bass still....
Good morning life
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
Day 10 & 11
well I cant remember what happened day 10.... I think I was supposed to hang out with a friend but got bailed on?
And yesterday.... lets see, I was busy for most of the day, calling people, making dreads and stuff.
Than by the time my dad came home.... I was pooped... and I STILL had to make calls...
And than my grandma called and said the yogurt shop wont be open for another year and a half... which totally sucks!!!
But oh well, im still moving back to cali in october, even if all my friends have left there, it'll be better than here.... cause its warm, and I can actually do other stuff.
Than me and a few friends discussed something about going to a rave :]
than my other friend demanded me to buy him and this bitch girl a ticket. ugh.
Now my other friend just said, after we went over it!! "who's buying" and he was supposed to get his own ticket... UGH!!! I hate colorado so much
Still no word from Bass, and his mom is now not responding to my texts.
I talked to my bro last night. I miss him. He said to call the cops on them for not sending my stuff after I paid...
idk, sounds too mean, but yea
And yesterday.... lets see, I was busy for most of the day, calling people, making dreads and stuff.
Than by the time my dad came home.... I was pooped... and I STILL had to make calls...
And than my grandma called and said the yogurt shop wont be open for another year and a half... which totally sucks!!!
But oh well, im still moving back to cali in october, even if all my friends have left there, it'll be better than here.... cause its warm, and I can actually do other stuff.
Than me and a few friends discussed something about going to a rave :]
than my other friend demanded me to buy him and this bitch girl a ticket. ugh.
Now my other friend just said, after we went over it!! "who's buying" and he was supposed to get his own ticket... UGH!!! I hate colorado so much
Still no word from Bass, and his mom is now not responding to my texts.
I talked to my bro last night. I miss him. He said to call the cops on them for not sending my stuff after I paid...
idk, sounds too mean, but yea
Sunday, April 4, 2010
Day 9
This morning, I called Bass again....
No answer. Well of course, because the operator came on and said 'the cricket number you have called, has temporary been disconnected'
I text his mom asking what happened, but no response.
So later that morning, I crawled out of bed after laying there for a few hours, and walked out of my room. I saw some candy on the floor, as my dad had 'hid' candy eggs around... but I just walked right past it. I grabbed one that was on the counter, and ate it, but that was it. Why? Why did I just walk past everything my dad had hid? simply because I dont care about anything anymore I guess.. which now that I think about it, makes me feel bad, because I kinda ignored him today. well didnt ignore him, just he would say stuff, and I wouldnt know how to respond except with a fake laugh, or I just didnt have anything in common with the subject. He is trying too hard to impress me I think. Which is nice... but it would be nice if he actually just... KNEW me, and knew what to talk about... but like me, I dont know what to talk about. Guess it was the distance of being away, or the fact that Im just so fricken miserable, and hate colorado, that im just always in a bad mood. anyways, enough emo talk. this is supposed to be a 'happy' blog thing... eventhough its not working.
we went to go shopping sorta, and ended up just going for a very long drive through the mountains. it was nice. We saw a hurd of elk! last time I saw that, I was in california, and they were all running around. It was really pretty, this time.... they were all just standing in a big circle...
Than we went to get me girly stuff for my stupid evil girly time of the month.
After that, we came home.... I cant remember what happened.. we watched a movie, I went to sleep, got back up, ate this cute tiny egg shaped cake that my dad got.... they were small,... one for him, one for me.
than... we watched the end of lord of the rings, I talked to my grandma, and..... that was it. my dad went to bed.
tomorrow my friend said he might take me out shopping.
oh! when I last talked to bass, which was like 2 days after I came back to colorado, he said he absolutely loved the CD I had made for him.... and he kept listening to it...
well now I keep listening to the playlist I had put together to make that CD. ugh...
day 9... no word from bass...
my attitude is going down again.
When will I be cured? I go through these phases.... these phases last for months and months, sometimes for a few years even.
I hope to find friends who can save me... even though only I can really save myself; help would be nice though
No answer. Well of course, because the operator came on and said 'the cricket number you have called, has temporary been disconnected'
I text his mom asking what happened, but no response.
So later that morning, I crawled out of bed after laying there for a few hours, and walked out of my room. I saw some candy on the floor, as my dad had 'hid' candy eggs around... but I just walked right past it. I grabbed one that was on the counter, and ate it, but that was it. Why? Why did I just walk past everything my dad had hid? simply because I dont care about anything anymore I guess.. which now that I think about it, makes me feel bad, because I kinda ignored him today. well didnt ignore him, just he would say stuff, and I wouldnt know how to respond except with a fake laugh, or I just didnt have anything in common with the subject. He is trying too hard to impress me I think. Which is nice... but it would be nice if he actually just... KNEW me, and knew what to talk about... but like me, I dont know what to talk about. Guess it was the distance of being away, or the fact that Im just so fricken miserable, and hate colorado, that im just always in a bad mood. anyways, enough emo talk. this is supposed to be a 'happy' blog thing... eventhough its not working.
we went to go shopping sorta, and ended up just going for a very long drive through the mountains. it was nice. We saw a hurd of elk! last time I saw that, I was in california, and they were all running around. It was really pretty, this time.... they were all just standing in a big circle...
Than we went to get me girly stuff for my stupid evil girly time of the month.
After that, we came home.... I cant remember what happened.. we watched a movie, I went to sleep, got back up, ate this cute tiny egg shaped cake that my dad got.... they were small,... one for him, one for me.
than... we watched the end of lord of the rings, I talked to my grandma, and..... that was it. my dad went to bed.
tomorrow my friend said he might take me out shopping.
oh! when I last talked to bass, which was like 2 days after I came back to colorado, he said he absolutely loved the CD I had made for him.... and he kept listening to it...
well now I keep listening to the playlist I had put together to make that CD. ugh...
day 9... no word from bass...
my attitude is going down again.
When will I be cured? I go through these phases.... these phases last for months and months, sometimes for a few years even.
I hope to find friends who can save me... even though only I can really save myself; help would be nice though
Day 8 [yesterday]
I think it was very early in the morning that I called bass.... His phone is now off... like, he canceled his plan, or he didnt pay for his phone bill....
Now there is absolutely no way for me to get ahold of him. I dont know what to do now.
Im crushed. This blog is supposed to make me feel better... but all these things keep happening.
but on the side note, [after having very little sleep that night] I got out of bed, and got ready for the day. My dad and I went down to colorado springs... I got my camera. nikon d80
not what I wanted. it doesnt have video. ugh!! but oh well.... whatever... I cant change that.
we got two memory cards, a new tripod [hopefully I wont loose the holder this time] and some other stuff.
my dad got a new computer, so now this one is all mine, and I can actually take it into my room before I go to bed. my dad also gave me $500 to buy clothes. wow, thanks... haha :)
we then went to get food, than he dropped me off to go see my old friend Brandon... he lives with this chick, and her dad... his friend was pretty rude... it was like she didnt even want to say hi... like she was full of herself and stuck up... I used to be like that,... it also comes with the package of a shy girl, but I grew out of that, and learned how to respect people that came into your home.
but whatever, I had a good... 20 minutes with brandon.
than my friend decided he wanted to pay me $120 for dreads, when I said, [price of hair+$25-35+shipping] which would probably come to be around... $37-50 but he decided he WANTED to pay me more. lol
the other day he talked to me for a long time, and really helped me out with my thinking. well not really, but he acted like he cared about my life, so that made me happy
but im still thinking too much about if I ever run into bass... what should I do? smack him and ask for my mom's stuff? yell at him and tell him he is exactly like ronnie? demand my stuff, and tell him to never ever talk to me again, and if he even tries to when im around D or Rich, im gonna tell ronnie that he is totally allowed to beat him up now? [not that ronnie hasnt just because i keep telling him not to]
or totally ignore him after I get my stuff like he has to me?
Or I could do the worst of the worst! tell his little gf about everything that happened... which I dont think I will.... thats just mean
Now there is absolutely no way for me to get ahold of him. I dont know what to do now.
Im crushed. This blog is supposed to make me feel better... but all these things keep happening.
but on the side note, [after having very little sleep that night] I got out of bed, and got ready for the day. My dad and I went down to colorado springs... I got my camera. nikon d80
not what I wanted. it doesnt have video. ugh!! but oh well.... whatever... I cant change that.
we got two memory cards, a new tripod [hopefully I wont loose the holder this time] and some other stuff.
my dad got a new computer, so now this one is all mine, and I can actually take it into my room before I go to bed. my dad also gave me $500 to buy clothes. wow, thanks... haha :)
we then went to get food, than he dropped me off to go see my old friend Brandon... he lives with this chick, and her dad... his friend was pretty rude... it was like she didnt even want to say hi... like she was full of herself and stuck up... I used to be like that,... it also comes with the package of a shy girl, but I grew out of that, and learned how to respect people that came into your home.
but whatever, I had a good... 20 minutes with brandon.
than my friend decided he wanted to pay me $120 for dreads, when I said, [price of hair+$25-35+shipping] which would probably come to be around... $37-50 but he decided he WANTED to pay me more. lol
the other day he talked to me for a long time, and really helped me out with my thinking. well not really, but he acted like he cared about my life, so that made me happy
but im still thinking too much about if I ever run into bass... what should I do? smack him and ask for my mom's stuff? yell at him and tell him he is exactly like ronnie? demand my stuff, and tell him to never ever talk to me again, and if he even tries to when im around D or Rich, im gonna tell ronnie that he is totally allowed to beat him up now? [not that ronnie hasnt just because i keep telling him not to]
or totally ignore him after I get my stuff like he has to me?
Or I could do the worst of the worst! tell his little gf about everything that happened... which I dont think I will.... thats just mean
day 7 [cant remember]
so day 7 was ACTUALLY on friday... friday morning I posted for day 6
but on friday.... I cant remember what happened.
except that I was talking to Bass's mom... she was pretty nice that day... saying she'd look for my stuff but didnt know where it was at.
my ex donnie just had to complain that i am no longer in his life, hes sad that I left, and what not. I would be back with him in a heartbeat.... if he had not cheated on me with like 7 other girls.
Thats all I can remember about friday.
I dont think it was a very good day
but on friday.... I cant remember what happened.
except that I was talking to Bass's mom... she was pretty nice that day... saying she'd look for my stuff but didnt know where it was at.
my ex donnie just had to complain that i am no longer in his life, hes sad that I left, and what not. I would be back with him in a heartbeat.... if he had not cheated on me with like 7 other girls.
Thats all I can remember about friday.
I dont think it was a very good day
Friday, April 2, 2010
Day 6 [last night]
yesterday, nothing went right...
I asked fran if her bro was alive... and she said he was with meranda [his new gf Im guessing] and he was moving.
so he could contact her, but he cant contact me...
Im not going to talk about the rest of the day cause nothing went right, except I got a video done for youtube, and I did go to a photoshoot....
it lasted 5 hours, and.... of course I didnt get paid... of course, I never do. but oh well...
and the photographer got me chapotlie or however you spell it
no word from bass... he moved... his mom said just to keep calling
I asked fran if her bro was alive... and she said he was with meranda [his new gf Im guessing] and he was moving.
so he could contact her, but he cant contact me...
Im not going to talk about the rest of the day cause nothing went right, except I got a video done for youtube, and I did go to a photoshoot....
it lasted 5 hours, and.... of course I didnt get paid... of course, I never do. but oh well...
and the photographer got me chapotlie or however you spell it
no word from bass... he moved... his mom said just to keep calling
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