So I woke up early in the morning after last looking at the clock at 3:45 am...
6:30 am... my dad was asking why I wanted to go to the skate park so early.... Brandon and I did,... Brandon was gonna teach me.... But Brandon didnt really wake up and it was snowing....
Anyways, so after my dad woke me up after he got done getting ready, to inform me that it was raining, I said goodbye to him, and fell back asleep.
A few hours later I woke up again. I had been getting texts from Klaa, and apparently they had been playing in my dreams,... meaning I didnt really notice it...
He was inviting me to go to the mall with him!!!
I had to think about it. One, I was waaay too tired to think, two.... well I had to clean the whole house.
But after a while I actually got out of bed, and started cleaning, decorated my room a little... but not as much as I wanted.... I realized I didnt have as many pictures as I thought in my photoalbum...
It would be a lot better if my printer was working =[
Anyways, I cleaned,... than I cooked some spam :] yum
after a while, I got ready, and Klaa came over.
He was dressed as one of the anime characters from Bleach, and I was slightly dressed like a pirate...
but dang, I hate my heals....
we went to the flat irion mall, to the mills mall...
and I got new shoes... and man, I hate those shoes too D<>.>
Oh, and he got me Cinnamon :]
Oh, than Jared text me.... saying 'hey babe i got my phone' but his signature said 'Marcos' so I was all like 'who the fuck is this?'
but i really asked 'er, Jared'
his response: "Yes, unless there is someone else that calls you babe"
Psh!!!! yea, right... if there was someone who called me babe that that I knew of, I'd be all like 'bitch...... im not your babe'
tehe....
but all in all today was a pretty good day today ^-^
except for the fact that I put on my corset today.... ugh, im getting fat... and its making me cry
='(
But anyways, I get to see my babe tomorrow, and hopefully we can all get out of the stress filled house....
He makes me so happy... but sometimes I feel like I cant be myself around him.... I guess its just me being shy....
But he checks my profile on myspace all the time, and I think thats so fricken cute!!!! <3333
Now I totally have a reason to update my profile all the time
Day 35
Bass still hasnt answered his phone...
Jared now has his phone.... YAY!!!!! Now I can text him all the time, and tell him I miss him, and.... he makes me happy, and, morning, and I can bother him 24/7 :D
He does make me happy....
and I still cant find my coat =[ Im gonna cry...
especially if its gonna be cold tomorrow... I hate wearing sweaters
=[ Damien moves to yellowstone in a few days... but hopefullly in about 6 months he'll move to colorado..... im really hoping. [hes taking the sesonal job... I wish I had joined last time... he really wanted me to join this time, but I just had too much other stuff going on]
oh, I updated my xanga account....
http://deafbats.xanga.com/weblogpreview
or just
http://deafbats.xanga.com/
p.s. I cant wait till these rude ass people leave my house.
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Day 34
So this morning I woke up around 6 something again, hoping to catch Jared... It seems that I just wake up around that time nowadays....
But anyways... so I layed in bed till the boys came in to bother me. Well not bother me, but I guess to get their shit, say good morning, and.... talk. I really cant remember.
I really cant remember the rest of the day at all except I FINALLY took a self portrait with my new camera.... yaaay... step one, done.
step two,... take shots of other people portrait wise.
Than got into a little argument about how I asked Brandon to throw the trash before he left the house... which he totally didnt,... and didnt do it till I yelled at him about it....
Anyways, after being irritated, I went off to my room and was texting a friend, who just broke up with his girl.... actually its the other way around.. but he is already looking for a new gf....
and that made me think of Derrick....
I broke up with him, and was over him rather quickly due to the fact that my mom was in the hospice [if you know what that is, yay for you] so that was stressing me out, and we fought all the time, and it just got boring.... yet... he has not yet found or gone out with another girl... its been like a year and a half...
So me and Derrick talked a lil.... of course we're just friends :]
Anyways,... Colorado is getting rather boring for me again... and again, im longing to go back to Cali more and more.... and more. And the fact that I dont really have a best friend here besides chip, who I argue with alot, is making it even more boring here....
and except the fact that Jared is here...
But really.... Im hella missing Juan.
I want my very very very own best friend again.... but someone who isnt going to fucking run off to gay mexico >.>
-sigh-
Makes me rather sad...
or if I had a chick friend of my own... that I can talk to, and she wont go and tell someone else....
Thats the thing,... between me and chip, I tell him something, he'll tell someone else... he tells me something, I'll probably tell who hes talking about... someone tells him something, he'll tell me...
I miss Jess too....
Anyways, I fell asleep while texting Derrick, and at some point of time Andrew just came in out of nowhere, and woke me up D<
lol but no, it kinda made me smile, cause he was saying something that I could join them out in the livingroom... and that I didnt have to lock myself up in my room all the time....
Thing is though... they are watching stupid sports.... or listening to their own music,... and have my computer... what is there for me to do out there? Nothing.
Anyways, so yea, I slept more...
and I ate alot...
I think Im falling back into my depression sate, eventhough I usually dont eat this much when Im depressed....
but today.... a k bar, another bar shit thing, couscose, rice, pork, cup of noodles, nachos, cereal, beagel, a piece of bread, a lil bit of chips, half a yogart [cause my dad used the other half for curry] 2 cookies, and I think one more thing, just cant remember.....
THATS MORE THAN i WOULD CONSUME IN A WEEK!!!
Now I look like a fat preggo >.>
anyways.... yea... idk what else to say...
but I really wanted to be productive in this blog. I always think of great things to talk about, but in the end I never remember.
Main thing is I have no control of whats going on with me right now....
I want my own fucking best friend who I can go shopping with, eventhough I honestly dont really like girls...
Day 34...
Bass still hasnt answered his phone
Franny is back to not messaging me,
and life is getting boring all over again.....
I hope to have a car soon,
and a shop
than i'd be a bit happier
But anyways... so I layed in bed till the boys came in to bother me. Well not bother me, but I guess to get their shit, say good morning, and.... talk. I really cant remember.
I really cant remember the rest of the day at all except I FINALLY took a self portrait with my new camera.... yaaay... step one, done.
step two,... take shots of other people portrait wise.
Than got into a little argument about how I asked Brandon to throw the trash before he left the house... which he totally didnt,... and didnt do it till I yelled at him about it....
Anyways, after being irritated, I went off to my room and was texting a friend, who just broke up with his girl.... actually its the other way around.. but he is already looking for a new gf....
and that made me think of Derrick....
I broke up with him, and was over him rather quickly due to the fact that my mom was in the hospice [if you know what that is, yay for you] so that was stressing me out, and we fought all the time, and it just got boring.... yet... he has not yet found or gone out with another girl... its been like a year and a half...
So me and Derrick talked a lil.... of course we're just friends :]
Anyways,... Colorado is getting rather boring for me again... and again, im longing to go back to Cali more and more.... and more. And the fact that I dont really have a best friend here besides chip, who I argue with alot, is making it even more boring here....
and except the fact that Jared is here...
But really.... Im hella missing Juan.
I want my very very very own best friend again.... but someone who isnt going to fucking run off to gay mexico >.>
-sigh-
Makes me rather sad...
or if I had a chick friend of my own... that I can talk to, and she wont go and tell someone else....
Thats the thing,... between me and chip, I tell him something, he'll tell someone else... he tells me something, I'll probably tell who hes talking about... someone tells him something, he'll tell me...
I miss Jess too....
Anyways, I fell asleep while texting Derrick, and at some point of time Andrew just came in out of nowhere, and woke me up D<
lol but no, it kinda made me smile, cause he was saying something that I could join them out in the livingroom... and that I didnt have to lock myself up in my room all the time....
Thing is though... they are watching stupid sports.... or listening to their own music,... and have my computer... what is there for me to do out there? Nothing.
Anyways, so yea, I slept more...
and I ate alot...
I think Im falling back into my depression sate, eventhough I usually dont eat this much when Im depressed....
but today.... a k bar, another bar shit thing, couscose, rice, pork, cup of noodles, nachos, cereal, beagel, a piece of bread, a lil bit of chips, half a yogart [cause my dad used the other half for curry] 2 cookies, and I think one more thing, just cant remember.....
THATS MORE THAN i WOULD CONSUME IN A WEEK!!!
Now I look like a fat preggo >.>
anyways.... yea... idk what else to say...
but I really wanted to be productive in this blog. I always think of great things to talk about, but in the end I never remember.
Main thing is I have no control of whats going on with me right now....
I want my own fucking best friend who I can go shopping with, eventhough I honestly dont really like girls...
Day 34...
Bass still hasnt answered his phone
Franny is back to not messaging me,
and life is getting boring all over again.....
I hope to have a car soon,
and a shop
than i'd be a bit happier
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Day 33
Ok, so im not going to put much in here.... Im just going to finish the rest tomorrow......
right now my computer keeps fucking up right now...
but yea.....
I got to see Jared today... was a pretty good day...
didnt really get to talk about what I wanted to...
but whatever...
lastnight we got into a.... idk.... misunderstanding fight thingy whatever....
but I think we're doing fine now....
but....
idk... I really dont feel like typing.....
but im just gonna say that Jared made me really happy today when me and him just layed there talking about stuff....
I became really content really fast... and I was really happy just laying there talking to him.... <3
but than his mom took me and andrew home soon after....
oh... and I love the fact that Jared is super ticklish :]
ok..... im done.... i'll post the rest tomorrow....
friday Jared invited me to t his place thing.... so yay for that
-----------------------
ok, so im finishing up this post....
when im on the computer my cat like HAS to lay on me.... and it totally gets annoying, and he like, REALLY wants to lay on me.... to the point that he is settling with just his two paws on my stummy.... sorry cat
anyways, yesterday we took the bus to the skate park,... and oh my goshness... it was soooo fricken hot. well not really,... I was just wearing long black pants.... and now I has this weir sunburn from my shirt.... which I totally love btw :]
But after a while Chip left to go back to work, and me andrew and Jared went to go lay in the shade.... than we went to go find foood... than we went to Independent Records....
Innerwold in cali is still the BEST place EVER!!! they have EVERYTHING!!! and its mostly a metal shop.... and a stoner shop... and they have an innerwold 2 which is right next door and that's where you'd buy your cigars porn hookahs and your pipes... but yea, the normal one has like clothes, posters of all kinds... 3 fucking HUGE ass binders with stickers... and like a binder for patches, and band flags and... omg, everything! I miss cali soooo much =[
Than we met up with Klaa..... I could have sworn my coat was in his car, but now I cants find its!!! Oooohhhh noooooo lol
Lets see.... Andrew kinda bothered me today....
Im not too fond of smart asses but whatever, gotta deal with it.
I totally had a dream that my crew was coming to live with me... oh-my-god... I'd be the happiest person alive!
one, Damien cooks for everyone, two, richie takes care of the sad and the sick, three, Ronnie just makes everyone happy.... except himself xD
[and.... im not counting rosa, steve or alayna jus cause.... I dont feel like it]
I sooo cant wait till I get my shop up!!
Than we got home after a while..... and andrew is there talking behind my back to my dad. oh god. seriously? to my dad? about shit he REALLY doesnt give a shit about? Im sure my dad sounds interested, but my dad doesnt really know the ins and outs [though he knows a lot more than me] so im sure he doesnt give a shit about what programs I use on there...
and im not even going to go into detail with that. I just cant wait till I get my shop up and running so I have a place to chill... alone... by myself, without being around so many guys 24/7
I mean... so far, I know Jared seems pretty respectful.... at least around me... Its nice to know he does have feelings and does get upset every once in a while, and isnt just a happy go lucky robot, but yea.... come on peoples! does no one know how to be respectful these days? I mean.... I may be a little toooo respectful and have anger problems at the same time, but whatever.... at least I know how to be nice to the person that is letting me live there for free... even if we are friends, I dont care....
Its like [sorry, I love you two both, but im just using this as an example] when alayna and ronnie would fight all the time.... yes, KATHY was the one who said alayna could live there, but Ronnie is Kathy's son..... if Ronnie doesnt like something your doing.... DONT FUCKING DO IT! I dont care if you have a baby.... [sorry D... lol im hoping you dont read this,.... totally just using it as an example]
But yea... I cant wait till I get a car, than I could just run away :]
god I wanna take pictures..... both model pictures and creative myspace pictures
oh! and the thing with Andrew saying Im not making my site professionally.... when all my hair is made out of 100% kk hair, which is SAID on my website... and the buyers who are usuallly cyber goth know that.... so using the word 'cheap' wouldnt be a problem... WHEN MOST OF THE PEOPLE SELL OFF OF MYSPACE!!! Myspace.... oh my god... wow, so yea, Im SOOOO not being professional here with a WEBSITE and have not even MADE a myspace dread account yet, i'd say Im a little bit more professional right now....
how PROFESSIONAL is myspace? Seriously? if EVERYONE buys off of there, than I think the simple word 'cheap prices' wouldnt hurt me at all....
fuck...
day 33...
bass still hasnt answered the phone
And I love...... love forhead kisses from Jared
right now my computer keeps fucking up right now...
but yea.....
I got to see Jared today... was a pretty good day...
didnt really get to talk about what I wanted to...
but whatever...
lastnight we got into a.... idk.... misunderstanding fight thingy whatever....
but I think we're doing fine now....
but....
idk... I really dont feel like typing.....
but im just gonna say that Jared made me really happy today when me and him just layed there talking about stuff....
I became really content really fast... and I was really happy just laying there talking to him.... <3
but than his mom took me and andrew home soon after....
oh... and I love the fact that Jared is super ticklish :]
ok..... im done.... i'll post the rest tomorrow....
friday Jared invited me to t his place thing.... so yay for that
-----------------------
ok, so im finishing up this post....
when im on the computer my cat like HAS to lay on me.... and it totally gets annoying, and he like, REALLY wants to lay on me.... to the point that he is settling with just his two paws on my stummy.... sorry cat
anyways, yesterday we took the bus to the skate park,... and oh my goshness... it was soooo fricken hot. well not really,... I was just wearing long black pants.... and now I has this weir sunburn from my shirt.... which I totally love btw :]
But after a while Chip left to go back to work, and me andrew and Jared went to go lay in the shade.... than we went to go find foood... than we went to Independent Records....
Innerwold in cali is still the BEST place EVER!!! they have EVERYTHING!!! and its mostly a metal shop.... and a stoner shop... and they have an innerwold 2 which is right next door and that's where you'd buy your cigars porn hookahs and your pipes... but yea, the normal one has like clothes, posters of all kinds... 3 fucking HUGE ass binders with stickers... and like a binder for patches, and band flags and... omg, everything! I miss cali soooo much =[
Than we met up with Klaa..... I could have sworn my coat was in his car, but now I cants find its!!! Oooohhhh noooooo lol
Lets see.... Andrew kinda bothered me today....
Im not too fond of smart asses but whatever, gotta deal with it.
I totally had a dream that my crew was coming to live with me... oh-my-god... I'd be the happiest person alive!
one, Damien cooks for everyone, two, richie takes care of the sad and the sick, three, Ronnie just makes everyone happy.... except himself xD
[and.... im not counting rosa, steve or alayna jus cause.... I dont feel like it]
I sooo cant wait till I get my shop up!!
Than we got home after a while..... and andrew is there talking behind my back to my dad. oh god. seriously? to my dad? about shit he REALLY doesnt give a shit about? Im sure my dad sounds interested, but my dad doesnt really know the ins and outs [though he knows a lot more than me] so im sure he doesnt give a shit about what programs I use on there...
and im not even going to go into detail with that. I just cant wait till I get my shop up and running so I have a place to chill... alone... by myself, without being around so many guys 24/7
I mean... so far, I know Jared seems pretty respectful.... at least around me... Its nice to know he does have feelings and does get upset every once in a while, and isnt just a happy go lucky robot, but yea.... come on peoples! does no one know how to be respectful these days? I mean.... I may be a little toooo respectful and have anger problems at the same time, but whatever.... at least I know how to be nice to the person that is letting me live there for free... even if we are friends, I dont care....
Its like [sorry, I love you two both, but im just using this as an example] when alayna and ronnie would fight all the time.... yes, KATHY was the one who said alayna could live there, but Ronnie is Kathy's son..... if Ronnie doesnt like something your doing.... DONT FUCKING DO IT! I dont care if you have a baby.... [sorry D... lol im hoping you dont read this,.... totally just using it as an example]
But yea... I cant wait till I get a car, than I could just run away :]
god I wanna take pictures..... both model pictures and creative myspace pictures
oh! and the thing with Andrew saying Im not making my site professionally.... when all my hair is made out of 100% kk hair, which is SAID on my website... and the buyers who are usuallly cyber goth know that.... so using the word 'cheap' wouldnt be a problem... WHEN MOST OF THE PEOPLE SELL OFF OF MYSPACE!!! Myspace.... oh my god... wow, so yea, Im SOOOO not being professional here with a WEBSITE and have not even MADE a myspace dread account yet, i'd say Im a little bit more professional right now....
how PROFESSIONAL is myspace? Seriously? if EVERYONE buys off of there, than I think the simple word 'cheap prices' wouldnt hurt me at all....
fuck...
day 33...
bass still hasnt answered the phone
And I love...... love forhead kisses from Jared
Monday, April 26, 2010
Day 32
So.... I stayed in bed almost all day long except I totally flipped out on Bass.... well not on him, just on his voice mail...
sent a message to franny to give to her mom...
and found out that my movie maker wont work anymore...
UGH!!! NO videos will fucking load on my computer now unless they are old...
I cant upload any videos on myspace, from any camera, under any format!! what the fuuuck
um.... I worked on my website :]
but its HELLA not finished
deafbatdreads.com
Drove today for the first time in like 8 months.... god i've been in colorado way too fucking long.
I need to go on another vacation to Turlock.
and me and my dad bought $180 worth of food....
adding 2 boys into your home really changes things
Ok... Im too irritated to finish this shit.
Day 32:
No answer from Bass...
Text DB which was funny, cause he was just thinking about me 15 minutes before I text him.
And..... shit really went down with Klaa.... I really hope things get better for him.
got my clothes from lip-service today...
yay.... I guess
yea =/ end of story
='(
sent a message to franny to give to her mom...
and found out that my movie maker wont work anymore...
UGH!!! NO videos will fucking load on my computer now unless they are old...
I cant upload any videos on myspace, from any camera, under any format!! what the fuuuck
um.... I worked on my website :]
but its HELLA not finished
deafbatdreads.com
Drove today for the first time in like 8 months.... god i've been in colorado way too fucking long.
I need to go on another vacation to Turlock.
and me and my dad bought $180 worth of food....
adding 2 boys into your home really changes things
Ok... Im too irritated to finish this shit.
Day 32:
No answer from Bass...
Text DB which was funny, cause he was just thinking about me 15 minutes before I text him.
And..... shit really went down with Klaa.... I really hope things get better for him.
got my clothes from lip-service today...
yay.... I guess
yea =/ end of story
='(
Day 30 & 31
Day 30:
Was the best day ever... period...
Got my first kiss from Jared....
day 31:
I cant remember anything...
Had spaghetti
And watched Ponyo....
and I didnt really like it...
I still say Spirited Away was the best movie he has done....
There is another one but I hella cant remember what its called....
Ok, Im done talking about those two days....
And today is day 32...
and I just feel like talking about whats happened so far....
Andrew and Brandon had fucked with my computer so fucking much that my fucking movie maker doesnt even fucking work anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
UGH! I fucking swear!!!!!!!!!
Now I need to go find another movie maker program....
my ram is probably all screwed with like... the 20 things they have downloaded in the past 2 weeks.... which my computer was not built to hold...
I got this computer to hold pictures, photoshop, and a simple movie maker,... not like a shitload of things.... atleast they have not downloaded any dumb ass games on here
but seriously, I have like 6 adobe shit, 2 movie maker shit, one that doesnt work, and the other one that doesnt work either.... and like, 2 music maker shit, 1 animation creation, like 2 corel programs, and like 4 things that I dont even know what they are, ok.... so not THAT much stuff, but still.... I went to get a simple ass computer to fit the budget, and yea...
my photoshop is running HELLA slow all the time... and Klaa JUST cleaned my computer too....
Day 30 & day 31
No answer from Bass....
Jared makes me happy...
I hate it when people dont answer the phone when its an 800 number... follow the fricken instructions, and say 'no this is not so and so' so they will stop calling instead of letting it ring and ring and waking people up. seriously, is it that hard?
Was the best day ever... period...
Got my first kiss from Jared....
day 31:
I cant remember anything...
Had spaghetti
And watched Ponyo....
and I didnt really like it...
I still say Spirited Away was the best movie he has done....
There is another one but I hella cant remember what its called....
Ok, Im done talking about those two days....
And today is day 32...
and I just feel like talking about whats happened so far....
Andrew and Brandon had fucked with my computer so fucking much that my fucking movie maker doesnt even fucking work anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
UGH! I fucking swear!!!!!!!!!
Now I need to go find another movie maker program....
my ram is probably all screwed with like... the 20 things they have downloaded in the past 2 weeks.... which my computer was not built to hold...
I got this computer to hold pictures, photoshop, and a simple movie maker,... not like a shitload of things.... atleast they have not downloaded any dumb ass games on here
but seriously, I have like 6 adobe shit, 2 movie maker shit, one that doesnt work, and the other one that doesnt work either.... and like, 2 music maker shit, 1 animation creation, like 2 corel programs, and like 4 things that I dont even know what they are, ok.... so not THAT much stuff, but still.... I went to get a simple ass computer to fit the budget, and yea...
my photoshop is running HELLA slow all the time... and Klaa JUST cleaned my computer too....
Day 30 & day 31
No answer from Bass....
Jared makes me happy...
I hate it when people dont answer the phone when its an 800 number... follow the fricken instructions, and say 'no this is not so and so' so they will stop calling instead of letting it ring and ring and waking people up. seriously, is it that hard?
Friday, April 23, 2010
Day 29
Ok... so nothing much happened today except....
I tried on my outfit, saw chip's new outfit xD
and I finished my dreads... yaaay
Than me and Jared made plans....
called places...
and than me and my dad picked up chip from work...
he brought home really good chicken
And that pretty much was my day.
I wanted to talk about something,... but I totally forgot, so I think im just going to come up with another subject....
which I cant think of..... otherwise I would have made a youtube video...
But I was thinking about something today..... and got really deep into the thought, and now its just like.... blah
Day 29....
Bass still hasnt answered his phone....
and Justin I think bailed.... >.>
I swear,.... I hate people who bail... I really REALLY do.
Tomorrow.... is gonna be fun :]
Maybe I'll finish this blog later
----
Ok, so!
I was thinking about describing the new... crew... I guess you can 'kinda' call us that.
I'd be the quiet smart-ass who gets angry and hurt way too much... I look to the past too much...
Andrew is just the overly smart-ass whos a prick sorta... and a smart ass can be taken two different ways.... as a smart-ass, and someone way too smart lol
Chip is the dumbass, hyper, and.... yea... kinda rude... or really rude actually...
And Jared, as an addition to the crew... is... idk really. He is himself... hyper and.... idk,... he kinda-ish reminds me of a good guy... or a bad guy gone good lol :]
Why am I always the girl in the crew? Last time yes, there was alayna and rosa,... but alayna was never around, and idk if anyone went to rosa to vent... except her brother and her bf
But its kinda funny, with just me chip and andrew....
I get mad easily, but I get over it in a day, and dont expect a sorry....
chip gets mad at the STUPID things, and always expects a sorry, and says he wont talk to someone till he gets a sorry
Andrew kinda just, doesnt give a shit, but gets really irritated, but knows how to hide it
Jared just doesnt get angry lol
Ok, I dont feel like blogging about this anymore... lol I'll finish some other time
I tried on my outfit, saw chip's new outfit xD
and I finished my dreads... yaaay
Than me and Jared made plans....
called places...
and than me and my dad picked up chip from work...
he brought home really good chicken
And that pretty much was my day.
I wanted to talk about something,... but I totally forgot, so I think im just going to come up with another subject....
which I cant think of..... otherwise I would have made a youtube video...
But I was thinking about something today..... and got really deep into the thought, and now its just like.... blah
Day 29....
Bass still hasnt answered his phone....
and Justin I think bailed.... >.>
I swear,.... I hate people who bail... I really REALLY do.
Tomorrow.... is gonna be fun :]
Maybe I'll finish this blog later
----
Ok, so!
I was thinking about describing the new... crew... I guess you can 'kinda' call us that.
I'd be the quiet smart-ass who gets angry and hurt way too much... I look to the past too much...
Andrew is just the overly smart-ass whos a prick sorta... and a smart ass can be taken two different ways.... as a smart-ass, and someone way too smart lol
Chip is the dumbass, hyper, and.... yea... kinda rude... or really rude actually...
And Jared, as an addition to the crew... is... idk really. He is himself... hyper and.... idk,... he kinda-ish reminds me of a good guy... or a bad guy gone good lol :]
Why am I always the girl in the crew? Last time yes, there was alayna and rosa,... but alayna was never around, and idk if anyone went to rosa to vent... except her brother and her bf
But its kinda funny, with just me chip and andrew....
I get mad easily, but I get over it in a day, and dont expect a sorry....
chip gets mad at the STUPID things, and always expects a sorry, and says he wont talk to someone till he gets a sorry
Andrew kinda just, doesnt give a shit, but gets really irritated, but knows how to hide it
Jared just doesnt get angry lol
Ok, I dont feel like blogging about this anymore... lol I'll finish some other time
Thursday, April 22, 2010
Day 28
Ok so I think I've calmed down a little bit about the whole Chip thing....
Even if he does almost makes me cry sometimes.... I know he doesnt mean it, at least I hope he doesnt.... but when I get super angry, I start to cry... [OMFG MY CAT JUST SCARED THE SHIT OUT OF ME!!!! Its fucking dark as all hell and he just runs across the bed and jumps up onto my headboard]
Anyways.... yea a lot of times I cry when im hella pissed off. He just.... idk, changed sooo fricken much.... he was sooo respectful when I first met him. But than again when I first met him he had a crush on me.... Funny how that goes....
Your super nice only to get a girl but after becoming friends, and no longer have the 'crush' relationship,..... they become a total bitch. [not saying for all guys]
Anyways,... today was great... sorta, in a way...
So chip got a job two days ago, Jared got a job yesterday, and today Andrew got a job!! :D yay...
now im gonna break the chain xDD
But Im SERIOUSLY trying to focus on building/doing my shop this month I hope...
Still, Im still thinking of if I should REALLY do it here.
Anyways.... yea, I spent the whole day with Jared and the boys....
End of story...
Ok, not really, but yea,... the high light of my day was finally hanging out with Klaa and going to his house to watch The Avatar.... It was alright....
But yea, I was just like 'awww' throughout the whole movie :]
Cause I got to lay with Jared. Awwww
But the whole time I kept seeing the girls there, I was still all like,.... idk...
They are way too super pretty lol for their own good xD
Abby seems nice though.... I miss my Abby though =/ [she was one of my best friends way back when]
Oh! I tried re-dying my hair.... yea... well it had exploded in the bag [note, I have pink, turquoise, black, and 3 purple different dyes in the same bag] and I had taken it on the plane to and from Cali.... so yea, thats what made the real mess.....
Oh!! Than Jared was talking about his plan for the solarfest thing.... and it just made me smile :] Like, alot.... :] He makes me smile period.
Day 28...
No answer from Bass
I got to talk to Damien. I miss my best friend :[
My dad seemed very very mad today =/
I hate seeing him mad all the time... it upsets me
We got locked out of the house
I wish I could just fall asleep in Jared's arms for once
Today was a good, yet bad day....
It rained alot D<
Klaa is coming to solarfest with us....
Im excited.... at least when Jared leaves to wonder off, I could probably stick by Klaa lol
Tonight is my last night to eat junk food till solarfest
Oh, I hooked up my printer.... but didnt work D<
I MISS JARED ALREADY!!
:]
Even if he does almost makes me cry sometimes.... I know he doesnt mean it, at least I hope he doesnt.... but when I get super angry, I start to cry... [OMFG MY CAT JUST SCARED THE SHIT OUT OF ME!!!! Its fucking dark as all hell and he just runs across the bed and jumps up onto my headboard]
Anyways.... yea a lot of times I cry when im hella pissed off. He just.... idk, changed sooo fricken much.... he was sooo respectful when I first met him. But than again when I first met him he had a crush on me.... Funny how that goes....
Your super nice only to get a girl but after becoming friends, and no longer have the 'crush' relationship,..... they become a total bitch. [not saying for all guys]
Anyways,... today was great... sorta, in a way...
So chip got a job two days ago, Jared got a job yesterday, and today Andrew got a job!! :D yay...
now im gonna break the chain xDD
But Im SERIOUSLY trying to focus on building/doing my shop this month I hope...
Still, Im still thinking of if I should REALLY do it here.
Anyways.... yea, I spent the whole day with Jared and the boys....
End of story...
Ok, not really, but yea,... the high light of my day was finally hanging out with Klaa and going to his house to watch The Avatar.... It was alright....
But yea, I was just like 'awww' throughout the whole movie :]
Cause I got to lay with Jared. Awwww
But the whole time I kept seeing the girls there, I was still all like,.... idk...
They are way too super pretty lol for their own good xD
Abby seems nice though.... I miss my Abby though =/ [she was one of my best friends way back when]
Oh! I tried re-dying my hair.... yea... well it had exploded in the bag [note, I have pink, turquoise, black, and 3 purple different dyes in the same bag] and I had taken it on the plane to and from Cali.... so yea, thats what made the real mess.....
Oh!! Than Jared was talking about his plan for the solarfest thing.... and it just made me smile :] Like, alot.... :] He makes me smile period.
Day 28...
No answer from Bass
I got to talk to Damien. I miss my best friend :[
My dad seemed very very mad today =/
I hate seeing him mad all the time... it upsets me
We got locked out of the house
I wish I could just fall asleep in Jared's arms for once
Today was a good, yet bad day....
It rained alot D<
Klaa is coming to solarfest with us....
Im excited.... at least when Jared leaves to wonder off, I could probably stick by Klaa lol
Tonight is my last night to eat junk food till solarfest
Oh, I hooked up my printer.... but didnt work D<
I MISS JARED ALREADY!!
:]
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